Emotion Series - Artist Statement
       
     
Thwarted Desire, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5"
       
     
Divertere, oil on canvas, 36x36x1.5", 2012
       
     
Not Black and White, acrylic on canvas, 36x36x1.5", 2012
       
     
She's Come Undone, oil on canvas, 60x72x2.5"
       
     
I Can Live Without You, oil on canvas, 72x48x2.5"
       
     
Death Comes and Recedes, oil on canvas, 48x72x1.5"
       
     
Dissolution, oil on canvas, 60x72x1.5"
       
     
Summoning the Heart of Love, oil on canvas, 60x72x2.5"
       
     
Missing Fucking You, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5"
       
     
His Confused Heart, oil on canvas, 60x48x2.5"
       
     
Suppression, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5"
       
     
Two Worlds Collide, oil on canvas , 72x48x1.5"
       
     
You Hurt Me (blame), acrylic on canvas, 72x60x1.5"
       
     
Blue Black Sea, oil on canvas, 24x20x1.5
       
     
Grief 3, oil on canvas, 48x72x2.5"
       
     
Not Enough Blue, oil on canvas, 20x24x1.5
       
     
Red Sea, oil on canvas, 24x20x1.5
       
     
Red Tide, oil on canvas, 20x24x1.5
       
     
Emotion Series - Artist Statement
       
     
Emotion Series - Artist Statement

This series, Emotion, addresses the temporal, personal, human struggle that includes loss, pain, joy, change, frustration, grief and aspiration. The paintings are intense, active and filled with a sense of energy in motion. For me as the artist, they the most self conscious and self absorbed of my recent work. They represent
energy that is unrealized in the sense of divine realization; raw and nascent. They represent the processing
of unconscious emotional reaction and converting it to consciousness, using the emotional energy to transform unrealized to realized, disturbance to peace. These paintings are powerful expressions of the unharnessed creative force that initiates change and growth, as are emotions when felt and constructively expressed.

My technique in this work is heavy, dense and multi-layered. Oil paint thickly applied, often with a spackle knife or trowel that sometimes takes years to dry, similar to old wounds and deep feelings. This technique evolved as I worked to give physicality and weight to emotions and the sense of movement as I ride my
emotional waves to resolution and transformation.

Emotions must be felt, allowed to flow and move through us in order to give us their message and transform us. “What we feel we can heal”. If blocked, they lead to illness and disease, either physical, mental or both. If we are honest about what we are feeling and have the courage to feel it consciously, we evolve.

Emotion is part of a series trifecta which includes two other bodies of work, Consciousness and Illumination. For the last 4 years or so I have worked on these three series concurrently as the inspiration and spiritual or emotional need arises. Metaphorically these three bodies of work represent the evolution of the soul through the three aspects of existence: the body (Emotion), the mind (Consciousness) and spirit (Illumination). As human beings we work with and evolve these three aspects our ourselves to achieve our full potential as divine beings and to attain peace in the here and now.

 

Thwarted Desire, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5"
       
     
Thwarted Desire, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5"

This is a painting about how it feels to have one's heart's desire just out of reach. It conveys the sense that just lurking under the surface of despair is a sense of luminescent hope.

This painting is part of the Emotion Series - Thickly painted impasto oil painting on canvas stretched over hand built 2.5" deep stretcher bars. Signed lower right side.

Divertere, oil on canvas, 36x36x1.5", 2012
       
     
Divertere, oil on canvas, 36x36x1.5", 2012

Divertere means to divert in Latin. It's also the root of the word divorce. To part, to go separate ways. Like water parting. White space underneath represents new beginning. Often we must part with what no longer suits us to make way for the new.

This painting has a sense of fluidity like water. And it's tough to say, are the waves parting or merging?

Not Black and White, acrylic on canvas, 36x36x1.5", 2012
       
     
Not Black and White, acrylic on canvas, 36x36x1.5", 2012

Rich and sensual black, red and white acrylic oil painting. Signed by the artist. From Jill Joy's Emotion Series.

Original painting available and limited edition Giclee prints starting at $150. Purchase Information

Life is not always simple and things are not black and white. There are some things we may never choose to do again and we could consider them "Mistakes" but truth is...there were some golden kernels in there with the muck.

 

She's Come Undone, oil on canvas, 60x72x2.5"
       
     
She's Come Undone, oil on canvas, 60x72x2.5"

Love can undo us and loss can undo us. Those experiences that shake our perception of ourselves by their very nature are both destructive of who we thought we were and creative of a new view of ourselves if we fully allow ourselves to experience the undoing. Inherent in both experiences is chaos and rebirth.

This painting is part of the Emotion Series - Thickly painted impasto oil painting on canvas stretched over hand built 2.5" deep stretcher bars. Signed lower right side.

I Can Live Without You, oil on canvas, 72x48x2.5"
       
     
I Can Live Without You, oil on canvas, 72x48x2.5"
Death Comes and Recedes, oil on canvas, 48x72x1.5"
       
     
Death Comes and Recedes, oil on canvas, 48x72x1.5"

This work was inspired by an experience I had with a close friend and former lover who went through a near death experience. We could feel death close at hand but it was beaten back by fate perhaps and certainly modern medical technology. I could sense the forces of the universe battling overhead and in him as he fought back to life. Even though he survived physically it was a kind of death and rebirth for him. The thing that nearly killed him awoke him.

Dissolution, oil on canvas, 60x72x1.5"
       
     
Dissolution, oil on canvas, 60x72x1.5"

Every beginning requires the destruction of what went before. The Hindus have a goddess, Kali, who is devoted to the mutual acts of creation and destruction.

This painting emerged as I dismantled my own life as a corporate marketer to create the one I had dreamed of for 20 years - being a full time artist. A lot had to go. Possessions, relationships, prestige, a hefty paycheck. But the space had to be cleared for a new life and more authentic life to emerge.

Summoning the Heart of Love, oil on canvas, 60x72x2.5"
       
     
Summoning the Heart of Love, oil on canvas, 60x72x2.5"

The initial inspiration for this work was The Secret, the idea that we summon that which comes to us with our thoughts. I believe this to be true, however I also believe that most of our thoughts are subconscious, beyond our awareness, and so we are often surprised when we get what comes to us.

When I started the painting, I had recently spent the day at the beach with my former boyfriend (you’ll hear me call him my Muse), He is someone I love dearly but with whom things never seemed to work out, despite 8 years of on again off again effort.

It was a perfect sort of day at the beach, as it often was between us, but for the tension of unfulfilled love and attraction, which made it less than perfect. That day ended up sourcing an under painting.

It seemed unfinished: raw somehow and one dimensional, or maybe idealized and thus untruthful. So I let it sit. After I saw the Life of Pi a few months later, I finished it the next day inspired by the scene when Pi, shipwrecked, just about gives up in the middle of the ocean, stranded for weeks, and about to be destroyed in a storm.

He completely surrenders, embraces chaos, love, death and God. I realized the love I was looking for was not love with a small “l” but Love with a capital “L”. Unconditional. All encompassing. Uncontrollable. This is what I finally decided to do in the painting, and in life.

Missing Fucking You, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5"
       
     
Missing Fucking You, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5"

This painting was created during one of those off again periods with my Muse. It's an expression of frustration and intensity and great emotional and physical passion. There's a poem written in the work with oil pen and layered over and under with oil paint. The purchaser of the painting gets to see the poem :)

His Confused Heart, oil on canvas, 60x48x2.5"
       
     
His Confused Heart, oil on canvas, 60x48x2.5"

Suppression, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5"
       
     
Suppression, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5"

Emotions have messages for us. As uncomfortable as they are I have found it's important to feel them and to allow them to move through the physical body. The intense pressure of an emotion can often lead us to constructive action if we allow it.

I work hard at feeling my emotions when they come but but not always successfully. This image came to me in a creative vision during a particularly intense time when I was trying to sort out my feelings about something. I thought I was fully engaging my emotions but unbeknownst to me there were portions I was suppressing.

I like this painting because it references a sort of horizon or landscape of a stormy red sea of emotion and the black calm of suppression.

Two Worlds Collide, oil on canvas , 72x48x1.5"
       
     
Two Worlds Collide, oil on canvas , 72x48x1.5"

This is a painting about love about two people who come together from two very different world views and how that collision creates an explosion of energy and change. Like the explosion that would create the birth of the new universe.

It's personal to my story with my own love and Muse but I believe that any sort of intense fated love is experienced as a collision of sorts. Like the birth of a new universe in which you are no longer a planet unto yourself. It's my theory that when genuine love is present one is not that much in control of ones destiny.
 

You Hurt Me (blame), acrylic on canvas, 72x60x1.5"
       
     
You Hurt Me (blame), acrylic on canvas, 72x60x1.5"
Blue Black Sea, oil on canvas, 24x20x1.5
       
     
Blue Black Sea, oil on canvas, 24x20x1.5

Thickly painted, highly textured and dramatic.

Signed lower right.

Grief 3, oil on canvas, 48x72x2.5"
       
     
Grief 3, oil on canvas, 48x72x2.5"

It seems to me that until we truly grieve something we have lost, we sentence ourselves to a type of purgatory...never dying to what is gone and unable to be re-born again to what is new.

In that purgatory is the repetition of patterns. We are so convinced that what we lost is our fault rather than a soulfully necessitated experience that we are destined to repeat it over and over again until we finally get or accept that the ending was not due to any irredeemable flaw in ourselves. But part of the growth process, part of our learning...in many ways a gift, albeit a painful one.

In allowing ourselves to grieve...to really die to the experience and the loss…knowing it is completely over and will never come back again...that we don't get another chance with that person or that circumstance...we can then be reborn to a new experience.  Something new and more meaningful and more fulfilling. Closer to what our true nature really wishes for us.

Signed lower right.

Not Enough Blue, oil on canvas, 20x24x1.5
       
     
Not Enough Blue, oil on canvas, 20x24x1.5

Signed lower right side.

Red Sea, oil on canvas, 24x20x1.5
       
     
Red Sea, oil on canvas, 24x20x1.5

Thickly painted, highly textured and dramatic.

Signed lower right.

Red Tide, oil on canvas, 20x24x1.5
       
     
Red Tide, oil on canvas, 20x24x1.5

 Signed lower right.