The Journey 2000-2011
       
     
Jill Joy - Transcendent Landscape - 48x48  oil on canvas - 2011
       
     
Aurora, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5", 2010
       
     
Dark Mountain, oil on canvas, 60x40x1.5", 2010
       
     
Jill Joy - Journey - oil on canvas - 48x72 - 2010
       
     
Jill Joy - Its Complicated – mixed media on canvas – 36x48″ – 2009
       
     
Landslide, oil on canvas, 48"x72x1.5", 2011
       
     
I Am Love, oil on canvas, 60x48x1.5", 2010
       
     
Doorway, oil on canvas, 72x48", 2006
       
     
I Still Love You, oil on canvas, 36×18x1.5″, 2007
       
     
Anne’s Love, oil on canvas, 44x34x2", 2007
       
     
Waiting for Love, mixed media on canvas, 30x30x1.5", 2006
       
     
Gone Again (the inheritance of hope), mixed media on canvas, 36x18x1.5", 2007
       
     
Loving D, oil on canvas, 54x44x2",  2005
       
     
The Mystery of Betrayal, oil on canvas, 40x60x1.5", 2010
       
     
Madre Blue, mixed media on canvas, 48x72x1.5", 2011
       
     
Black Ice, mixed media on canvas, 48x72x1.5", 2010
       
     
The Glaciers Are Melting, acrylic on canvas, 48x60x1.5", 2006
       
     
Narcissus' Pain, acrylic on canvas, 48x36x1.5", 2011
       
     
Self Love, acrylic on canvas, 60x44x2”, 2005
       
     
The Rain Comes to My Soul, acrylic on canvas, 60x44x2”, 2005
       
     
Divine Love, mixed media on canvas, 72x48x2", 2006
       
     
Love, mixed media on canvas, 72x48x2",  2005
       
     
Love & Betrayal, mixed media on canvas, 72x48x1.5",  2006
       
     
Resurrection, acrylic on canvas, 44x34x2", 2000
       
     
Jill Joy,  Renewal, acrylic on canvas, 44x34, 2000
       
     
The Journey 2000-2011
       
     
The Journey 2000-2011

This series comprises remaining available work I created from 2000 through 2011. During this period I passed through a variety of stages as I evolved spiritually and artistically. Over the course of a decade I explored the mystery of betrayal and disappointment and how it opens us to a more authentic life, the malleable nature of reality and how it shifts with our thoughts and the unlimited expanse of the ocean, both the physical and emotional.

Much of the work is intense and most of it is extremely personal, reflecting what I was going through in my own life at the time of creation. I don't take commissions from this series, but prints may be available if something here or in the Sold Archive interests you.

This work represents the evolution of my discovering my singular artistic voice in the Consciousness Series.

 

Jill Joy - Transcendent Landscape - 48x48  oil on canvas - 2011
       
     
Jill Joy - Transcendent Landscape - 48x48 oil on canvas - 2011

This work was an extension of the Windows Series...taking it a step beyond and into new real which eventually led to my Consciousness Series. Again it tapped the idea that if we can look through this visible, transient world, what we see beyond is something more real, though invisible, and unchanging, a spiritual reality that exists always beneath the surface or just beyond this one.

Aurora, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5", 2010
       
     
Aurora, oil on canvas, 48x48x1.5", 2010

Inspired by a deep and rich internal landscape along with a fascination for the Aurora Borealis and all things magical in Alaska, the birth place of my Muse. Dripping and overlapping blues, greens and purple create a mysterious world where it's not clear where the sky, earth and sea begin and end.

This painting is part of a series I completed as a meditation on the nature of reality and its malleable and fluid quality. Thoughts shape reality. When we change, or we change our thoughts, our reality changes. Sometimes our perception of reality and past events will even change over time. The fluid, dripping paint and layering of color speak to the liquid nature of reality.

Dark Mountain, oil on canvas, 60x40x1.5", 2010
       
     
Dark Mountain, oil on canvas, 60x40x1.5", 2010

This painting is part of a series I completed as a meditation on the nature of reality and its malleable and fluid quality. Thoughts shape reality. When we change, or we change our thoughts, our reality changes. Sometimes our perception of reality and past events will even change over time. The fluid, dripping paint and layering of color speak to the liquid nature of reality.

This painting in particular is about how some of us cling to pain and our past experiences which creates immovable forms in our subconscious. I wrote the poem below at the same time I completed this work.

Dark mountain
in the canyon of your heart
Solid and hard
it breaks you apart

Dark mountain
rising up craggy and moist
from the valley of your soul
solid rock that steals choice

Dark mountain
wall of pain
keeping you broken
as you remember again and again

Dark mountain
shadows the landscape of your mind
release resistance
allow mutable time

© Jill Joy 2010

 

Jill Joy - Journey - oil on canvas - 48x72 - 2010
       
     
Jill Joy - Journey - oil on canvas - 48x72 - 2010

This painting was part of a short exploration into a series called Windows. Widows into the soul, into the mind, into something beyond the visible world.

Jill Joy - Its Complicated – mixed media on canvas – 36x48″ – 2009
       
     
Jill Joy - Its Complicated – mixed media on canvas – 36x48″ – 2009

This painting was part of a short exploration into a series called Windows. Widows into the soul, into the mind, into something beyond the visible world.

Most specifically it's a painting about my relationship with my ex-husband who I count as one of my permanent supporters in this crazy world. We're not married anymore but we still support each other. It's complicated.

Landslide, oil on canvas, 48"x72x1.5", 2011
       
     
Landslide, oil on canvas, 48"x72x1.5", 2011

Geometric interplay of surreal forms expressing a changing consciousness grappling with new awareness and letting go of old ideas.

Oil on canvas signed lower right.

I Am Love, oil on canvas, 60x48x1.5", 2010
       
     
I Am Love, oil on canvas, 60x48x1.5", 2010

This painting reflects the experience of being a spiritual being in the midst of a temporal and sometimes painful reality. It incorporates a modified Sanskrit mantra, the original is "I Am That I Am". I changed it to "I Am Love". This chant is written in gold oil pen across blank primed canvas, overlaid with an intense experience of emotional disappointment and a recognition of the limitations we face as human beings. This work is recognition of the fact that we are in the world, but not of the world.

This painting transcends two bodies of work from my Journey Series - it's part of my Emotion series but also the Reality series which explores the malleable nature of reality and how we perceive events based on our thoughts.

Doorway, oil on canvas, 72x48", 2006
       
     
Doorway, oil on canvas, 72x48", 2006

In early 2006 I quit my job and took some time off to paint. Right about the same time, I met a new man who I thought would be important in my life. Having had the experience of being married and the pain of divorce, it took a huge leap of faith to give myself over to the possibility of new love and also of possibly being hurt again.

Late one night, my work took a totally different turn as I was thinking about this new relationship. I painted the painting that started this series, Doorway. This is what I saw this new relationship as -- a doorway.  It takes a lot of courage to walk through a new doorway.  I realized in that moment if you wait for the perfect moment, perfect job, perfect relationship, perfect time to do what you love -- It will never come. 

This series explores the idea that even though life can be so thoroughly frustrating and disappointing sometimes, it can also be incredibly beautiful and poignant.  And this concept goes back to a thought that has informed my work from the beginning  --  an experience may be painful but it can always be used for spiritual growth. Using experiences in this way is alchemical and transforms even an ugly experience into something of beauty. My paintings represent this alchemy.

I Still Love You, oil on canvas, 36×18x1.5″, 2007
       
     
I Still Love You, oil on canvas, 36×18x1.5″, 2007

Unrequited love that still burns brightly. I Still Love You is from a series entitled, Life's Not Perfect (but it's beautiful).

It's a vibrant, painterly, geometric painting with multiple layers of oil paint and highly textured.

The series addresses the idea that it takes a lot of courage to walk through a new doorway in life. You have to follow your heart and seize the opportunities that are meaningful. When we pursue what is meaningful we create beauty. Even though life can be frustrating and disappointing sometimes, it can also be incredibly beautiful and poignant.

Anne’s Love, oil on canvas, 44x34x2", 2007
       
     
Anne’s Love, oil on canvas, 44x34x2", 2007

This painting was inspired by the love of a devoted but flawed (aren't we all) friend. It's from a series entitled, Life's Not Perfect (but it's beautiful).

It's a vibrant, geometric painting with multiple layers of oil paint and a textured target like shape in the upper center. Painted on primed canvas over 2" hand built stretchers, signed lower right

The series addresses the idea that it takes a lot of courage to walk through a new doorway in life. If you wait for the perfect moment, job, relationship or the perfect time to do what you love, it will never come. You have to follow your heart and seize the opportunities that are meaningful. When we pursue what is meaningful we create beauty. Life can be frustrating and disappointing sometimes, it can also be incredibly beautiful and poignant.

Waiting for Love, mixed media on canvas, 30x30x1.5", 2006
       
     
Waiting for Love, mixed media on canvas, 30x30x1.5", 2006

I've learned in life that the need for love generally pushes away the very thing we want most. We are trapped by our own feelings of being loveless. This work expresses my feelings of waiting for love from someone I felt love for and was waiting to be loved back. I had a glimmer of what that love would feel like but yet still felt trapped in a sense of isolation.

This piece has a distinct Asian feel and as it turns out a friend of mine born in China told me the black mark at the center is the Chinese character for "sun". I thought this was interesting for to truly be open to love, I think we have to radiate it. We have to be our own sun.

Oil paint, mica and graphite pencil on canvas. Signed lower right side.

This painting is from a series of work I completed exploring the idea of abandonment and something I saw in my mind's eye I called "The Abandonment Box".  Sometimes when we are left by others, we leave ourselves as well. This work explores the idea that we are never really alone and we can never be left. A discovery that brings great freedom and stability to our lives.

Oil paint, mica crystals, graphite pencil primed canvas over 1.5" double framed stretchers, signed lower right side.

 

Gone Again (the inheritance of hope), mixed media on canvas, 36x18x1.5", 2007
       
     
Gone Again (the inheritance of hope), mixed media on canvas, 36x18x1.5", 2007
Loving D, oil on canvas, 54x44x2",  2005
       
     
Loving D, oil on canvas, 54x44x2", 2005

This painting with its fluid and translucent blue, green and magenta explores the nature of love. The bliss, the pain and the changeable nature of feelings.

This painting is from a series of paintings I completed that explored the idea of reality, the dripping, fluid nature of thoughts and feelings and how they impact our perceptions of what is occurring.

Oil on primed canvas, 2" hand built stretchers, signed lower right front.

The Mystery of Betrayal, oil on canvas, 40x60x1.5", 2010
       
     
The Mystery of Betrayal, oil on canvas, 40x60x1.5", 2010

The Mystery of Betrayal explores the idea that sometimes when we feel betrayed by a person or circumstances we are able to come to a higher clearer understanding of ourselves, what our path is, our true value. In some sense "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" that overcoming criticism or abuse and persevering can enlighten our senses.

Oil and metal leaf on canvas, signed lower right side.

This painting is part of a series I completed as a meditation on the nature of reality and its malleable and fluid quality. Thoughts shape reality. When we change, or we change our thoughts, our reality changes. Sometimes our perception of reality and past events will even change over time. The fluid, dripping paint and layering of color speak to the liquid nature of reality.

Madre Blue, mixed media on canvas, 48x72x1.5", 2011
       
     
Madre Blue, mixed media on canvas, 48x72x1.5", 2011
Black Ice, mixed media on canvas, 48x72x1.5", 2010
       
     
Black Ice, mixed media on canvas, 48x72x1.5", 2010

Black Ice

Beneath my calms skies there’s black ice in my soul

A slick dark patch that feels life times old

A shallow ice layer deadly in its way

Tread carefully across, it’s where the ego slays

 

Slick and dark, it’s pain that runs deep

When I’m with you sometimes, up it creeps

It’s the pain of losing what was dearest to me

Of wanting a love so badly I could not see

 

It’s cold and it’s dark, it’s there all the time

It’s deep and it’s narrow, beyond reason or rhyme

 

These patches of black ice frozen deep in my heart

Don’t even know they’re there ‘til love has a chance to start

But once they surface, they make themselves known

They come up fast ‘cuz I love you harder, but they are all my own

 

So as you walk with me if the path begins to feel slick

That’s my black ice. the chill comes on quick

I know you’re here now to help melt it down

As it turns into tears, the pain begins to drown

 

It’s cold and it’s dark, it’s there all the time

It’s deep and it’s narrow, beyond reason or rhyme

 

So don’t be surprised if we hit a slick or two

The ice we are on is glacial, it’s ancient electric blue

I think you’ll be around though for as long as it takes

To melt those hidden patches into clear glacial lakes

 

Once this ice is gone will you be gone too?

Or will you float in the sun with me, skin chilled by liquid blue?

You’ll do what you do, you’ll go or you’ll stay

Maybe when I’m liquid, I’ll send you away

 

But while you are here I like you just fine

If you can manage a slick patch from time to time

That ice is in me whether I’m with you or another

Running from you won’t melt it, so I won’t even bother

It’s cold and it’s dark, it’s there all the time

It’s deep and it’s narrow, beyond reason or rhyme

 

The only thing I can fathom that will make it go

Is standing in the light, knowing what is truly so

So let’s forget about the black ice forget about it for a while

Let me stand in the heat of you and your love without guile.

 

© Jill Joy August 2010

 

 

 

The Glaciers Are Melting, acrylic on canvas, 48x60x1.5", 2006
       
     
The Glaciers Are Melting, acrylic on canvas, 48x60x1.5", 2006

This painting was inspired by a trip to Alaska where I had the good fortune to take a helicopter ride over a glacier. It's not actually a statement about global warming, although that is a problem. The glacier here is metaphorical, those ice formations that exist in my soul, things like guilt and self doubt. It's a painting about positive, spiritual evolution. The poem below goes with it.

the glaciers are melting in my soul
plates of ice a million years old
mountains of guilt buried so deep
i heard whispers of their movement
in deepest darkest sleep

there’s no stopping them now they are on the move
the ice floes are running change is coming

self loathing and doubt are melting away
ceaseless dripping holds me sway
the ice is melting inches everyday
my personal planet is turning into a bay

there’s no stopping them now they are on the move
the ice floes are running change is coming

when these guilt glaciers are gone
i’ll no longer have an ego saying i’m wrong
my body may then cease to exist
my mind will merge with pure divine bliss

there’s no stopping them now they are on the move
the ice floes are running change is coming

so please don’t feel sorry for me
that my personal planet will no longer be
aside from a thought form it doesn’t exist
its disappearance i shall not resist

Created with impasto techniques and acrylic paint as well as crystal granules and graphite powder in acrylic medium. There is a lot of texture in this painting as well as dripping paint. One gets a sense of multiple layers and movement when viewing this work.

This painting is from The Mystery Series which addressed the idea that events sometimes occur in our lives that may appear negative or difficult at first, yet in retrospect, they bring us gifts we could not have imagined.

 

 

 

Narcissus' Pain, acrylic on canvas, 48x36x1.5", 2011
       
     
Narcissus' Pain, acrylic on canvas, 48x36x1.5", 2011
Self Love, acrylic on canvas, 60x44x2”, 2005
       
     
Self Love, acrylic on canvas, 60x44x2”, 2005

Self Love, can we actually ever get enough of it? The ironic thing about self love is that one feels rigorously driven to develop it when the conditions of one's childhood were not loving. Either that or you turn to addiction. I decided to cultivate the former.

Created with impasto techniques and acrylic paint as well as crystal granules and graphite powder in acrylic medium and graphite pencil. There are words written in the painting. There is a lot of texture in this painting as well as dripping paint.

This painting is from The Mystery Series which addressed the idea that events sometimes occur in our lives that may appear negative or difficult at first, yet in retrospect, they bring us gifts we could not have imagined.

 

 

 

The Rain Comes to My Soul, acrylic on canvas, 60x44x2”, 2005
       
     
The Rain Comes to My Soul, acrylic on canvas, 60x44x2”, 2005

The Rain Comes to My Soul is a soothing abstract painting. It is about the ending of my marriage to a man who remains one of my dearest friends.

It was a painful time and yet all the while I could sense the change was good for my soul. What had become a desiccated structure, our marriage, was disintegrating and something new was growing into possibility. In retrospect I now know it was one more step in committing myself to my art. We are both happy now and have more fulfilling lives than we had at the time of our split.

This painting was created with impasto techniques and acrylic paint as well as crystal granules in acrylic medium. There is a lot of texture and iridescent as well as flat paint so the painting shifts and moves as the light changes giving the impression of motion and change.

It's from a series I did entitled The Mystery which addressed the idea that events sometimes occur in our lives that may appear negative or difficult at first, yet in retrospect, they bring us gifts we could not have imagined.

Divine Love, mixed media on canvas, 72x48x2", 2006
       
     
Divine Love, mixed media on canvas, 72x48x2", 2006

As the title suggests, this work is an exploration of the nature of Divine Love. It's a multi-layered mixed media painting. The first layer is comprised of mystical symbols from various cultures that communicate some aspect of divinity or infinity, sculpted in relief using plaster and paper fiber.

I incorporated a Sanskrit chant I learned in my early 20's living in a yoga ashram, "So Hum Shiva Hum", which translates loosely to “I am that”. You can see this written in the upper right around an infinity symbol in both English and Sanskrit in gold oil pen. This chant is used in contemplation meditation is an opportunity to focus "thinking mind" on the mystery of being.

On left the, I've included one of my own poems about the nature of divinity:

I am all there is
I am all that is
I am the breath in your body
I am the light and the dark
I am the night and the day
I am the sun and the moon
I am your pain and your joy
And the space in between
I am everything right and everything wrong

I painted Divine Love using acrylic paint, oil pen, mica crystals, graphite powder, plaster and paper fiber on primed canvas stretched over 2" hand built stretchers, signed lower right.

This painting is from a series originally entitled Love and Other Words, a small group of large paintings I completed in 2005 and 2006 that incorporate words or poetry and explore the nature of love.

Love, mixed media on canvas, 72x48x2",  2005
       
     
Love, mixed media on canvas, 72x48x2", 2005

Love (human love as opposed to Divine Love) is a crazy, messy thing. I began this painting in New York around 2002 and finished it a couple of years later in 2005 shortly after re-locating to San Diego after my husband and I separated.

My experience of Love, true and lasting Love, is that it's a journey. This was true of my relationship with my former husband (now friend) and has also been true of my current love which was has been an evolving process for 8 years.

I believe to truly love there has to be a purification of the ego (at least in my case there was). First I needed to really learn to love myself and meet most of my own needs and then I really needed to learn that I have to let people be who they are - it's the greatest gift of love - acceptance.

This painting is from a series entitled Love and Other Words, a small group of large paintings I completed in 2005 and 2006 that explore the idea of love and incorporate words or poetry. It is thickly painted in oil and highly textured. The word “Love” is built up in relief on the canvas. Painted on primed canvas and stretched on hand built 2” stretchers, signed lower right.

Love & Betrayal, mixed media on canvas, 72x48x1.5",  2006
       
     
Love & Betrayal, mixed media on canvas, 72x48x1.5", 2006

This painting is called Love and Betrayal which seems to be an obvious statement. What a lot of people don't see is the large word "Transcendence" written across the canvas in white letters.

Human love is pleasure and pain. We cycle through both, repeatedly, the healthier relationships having more pleasure than pain but, none the less, when we place our heart and happiness in the hands of someone we love, it's going to be a mixed bag.

This work is about intense love and heartbreak, but lifting the entire experience up is the idea of transcendence; that is to seek and to find the highest love from oneself or one's idea of a higher power or God or universal love or whatever you want to call it. It puts us above the fray, or in the center wheel of Karma (the ups and the downs) that every consists every relationship. When we do this, we can have our experiences, but they don't have us.

The words at the top of this painting are by Rumi, about the agony of lovers, how they burn with the fire of their passion and how it leaves a trace – “The wailing of broken hearts is the doorway to God”. The poems below are mine written, on the right, about the ecstasy of falling in love and, on the left, the agony of the ending redeemed by self love.

This work is mixed media on canvas, acrylic mostly but also sand, granulated crystals and oil markers. Signed on the lower right side.

This painting is from a series originally entitled Love and Other Words, a small series of large paintings I completed in 2005 and 2006 that explore the idea of love and incorporate words or poetry.

Resurrection, acrylic on canvas, 44x34x2", 2000
       
     
Resurrection, acrylic on canvas, 44x34x2", 2000

This painting is from my Christian Mystic phase. I was baptized Catholic but never practiced and am not religious in anyway. In the late 90's I was very ill not having success being cured by doctors. So I went to a highly recommended "faith" healer. He happened to be Christian. Several paintings emerged from the work I did with him.

This one is dark and mysterious and has beautiful layering and very soothing colors. Resurrection is about the healing of the human heart. Our fragile hearts inevitably get broken in this life we live. The cross symbolizes, not Christ’s cross for me, but the intersection of divine time – or infinity (vertical), and human time - temporal (horizontal). This intersection, it was explained to me by the healer, is the present moment when past and future fall away and true healing of the heart occurs in the sense of universal connection and peace when we let go of past hurts and future fears. I'm not religious but I do believe in the idea of Universal Love and the power of being present.

Oh and by the way, he did manage to heal my medical problem and it did feel like a miracle of sorts.

This is a multi-layered acrylic painting with quite a bit of texture and dripping paint. Painted on primed canvas and stretched on a heavy duty 2" deep stretchers.

 

Jill Joy,  Renewal, acrylic on canvas, 44x34, 2000
       
     
Jill Joy, Renewal, acrylic on canvas, 44x34, 2000

The sister painting to Resurrection, Renewal is from the same period in my life. If possible I'd like these two paintings to be placed as a dyptich, as together, they express two stages of one process. In this life we can be called to die to old circumstances either emotionally or physically, simply put: change. Sometimes this change can feel devastating, like a death. But if we are following the path of our soul, eventually from this metaphorical crucifixion will come a resurrection and eventually renewal, new life, new hope, new vitality and new capability.

This painting is from my Christian Mystic phase. I was baptized Catholic but never practiced and am not religious in anyway. In the late 90's I was very ill not having success being cured by doctors. So I went to a highly recommended "faith" healer. He happened to be Christian. Several paintings emerged from the work I did with him.

This one is dark and mysterious and has beautiful layering and very soothing colors. Renewal is about the healing of the human heart. Our fragile hearts inevitably get broken in this life we live. The cross symbolizes, not Christ’s cross, but the intersection of divine time – or infinity (vertical), and human time - temporal (horizontal). This intersection, it was explained to me by the healer, is the present moment when past and future fall away and true healing of the heart occurs in the sense of universal connection and peace when we let go of past hurts and future fears. I'm not religious but I do believe in the idea of Universal Love and the power of being present.

Oh and by the way, the healer did manage to heal my medical problem and it did feel like a miracle of sorts.

This is a multi-layered acrylic painting with quite a bit of texture and dripping paint. Painted on primed canvas and stretched on a heavy duty 2" deep stretchers.